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An Extended Definition of Truth

For our second essay in my English Composition II class, we were asked to write an extended definition. This is what I came up with:

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My results from Colorquiz

Free personality analysis from ColorQuiz.com.
Generated on Fri, 06 May 2011 09:26:12 -0700
Your Existing Situation

Is feeling a large amount of stress due to his inability to achieve goals and his indecisiveness on how to go about changing the situation for the better.

Your Stress Sources

"Sensitive, gentle, and emotional; having a strong need to find some sort of magical harmony and beauty. Artistic in nature, he longs to find a partner who finds these things important as well; however, having trouble finding such a perfect person. Keeps a close eye on his emotional and how much of himself is given to others. He must always know where he stands with others and longs to be regarded with respect. His taste are geared to the artistically beautiful and refined, but he can be harsh and critical of works of art and creativity. Yearns to make friends with those who can help build his intelligence and artistic ability."

Your Restrained Characteristics

Emotionally distant even from those closest to him.

Current situations force him into compromise and placing his own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.

Is feeling emotionally drained from stressful and tense situations. He is in need of peace and quiet in order to overcome his lack of energy and may become irritable if he does not recover.

Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.

Current situations force him into compromise and placing his own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.

Your Desired Objective

"Seeking an escape from the things that are bringing him down, but is clinging to false hopes and pipe dreams."

Your Actual Problem

Harshly critical of the existing situation which he believes is disorganized and unclear. Seeking some sort of solution which will make the situation more clear and with some sort of organization.

Your Actual Problem #2

"Feeling unimportant in this current situation, and is looking for different conditions where he will be able to better prove his worth and importance."


My brain melted some time ago, and I'm not sure that it has recovered yet. I stopped drinking caffeine. Sometime before the brain melt, but there was a long enough space between the end of the withdrawal headaches and the melting that I don't think they were related. I actually feel pretty good about the lack of caffeine. In fact the couple of times that I have decided to have some I think it actually gave me a headache.

I have also been thinking a lot about The Mad Queen. I have been having lots of good ideas and thoughts about where I want to take it, but I am having a hard time figuring out how to implement the changes into the already "finished" draft. I also am having a hard time figuring out how to write the prologue. It keeps getting stuck. I know what needs to be brought up, but I can't get it out without it sounding forced and stilted. But at least part of the problem is that I keep changing my mind on the specifics of it. I want to talk to someone about it, but I don't know who. Maybe I should find a writing group. Anyone know of a good one in the Treasure Valley?

I don't know what to put here...

So. It has been a while since I posted, but I feel like sharing, and I don't want to put this on facebook right now. So here goes.

I was just at the hospital. My great-grandma is there. She is dying.

Fluid is filling her lungs, and the area around her heart, as well as in other places in her body. They have taken her off all her medications and are giving her morphine for the pain. Like I said. She is dying.

She is 91 years old, and very, very tired, and, I think, lonely. Her husband, my great-grandpa, and all her siblings and cousins are already passed on. So, this is less of a sad thing, and more of a bittersweet thing. Yes, it is sad for all of us, but at the same time, we have been expecting this for more than a couple years. We have made every holiday, and every birthday count. She has been well loved, and will be well missed, but it is time.

But I just wanted to...say something. Because I just left the hospital, and it may be the last time I see Great-Grandma Mewhinney alive. I need this moment to me remembered. If not by the world, then at least by my self.

(and now I have to go take a math test)


time for vent

i want to write! my brain is shifting into high gear, and i am holding myself back for the 1st. i did make the mistake of pulling up the mad queen and start working on that, and that is all revision and editing at this point. i feel kinda lost with that one a lot recently, though. I don't know if it is because i have let it sit for too long, or if it is because i just need to focus a bit more.

i really love that story, I think i just need to hammer out some details, and smooth out the flow. also, as i was reading through i noticed a bunch of inconsistencies.

okay, i need to go now. (also, this is my first attempt at writing a post from my phone, so we will see how well it works.)

pre-nano jitters

Getting both excited and a little daunted by NaNoWriMo. I am nearly as ready as I can be, though I am still missing some key pieces of characterization. Though, thinking about it, a lot of the time, I learn just as much about the characters as I do about the plot while actually writing.

My biggest problem right now is that I still don't know what my main character's primary motivator is. I don't know what he wants. Though thinking about it, maybe he doesn't either. Maybe the majority of the story is him going along with what everyone tells him he is supposed to be doing, and then at some point he figures it out. And in fact, I already know when he "figures it out" and it wouldn't be too much more to have him figure that part out, too. If I can't figure it out by then, I am having some serious issues anyway.

I have been working on making a video. I was using Windows Movie Maker, but it wasn't working quite as well as I wanted, so I downloaded another program, which I can't remember the name of right now, and is working quite a bit better. But I get distracted rather easily so it is still going rather slowly. ;-) I am doing a Heroes vid with the song "This is War" by 30 Seconds to Mars. And my OCD/perfectionist tendencies are showing.


Writing and Other stuff

I have been hard at work plotting my NaNoWriMo 2010. It is epic. Literally. There are times when I feel like I have bitten off more than I can handle, but then I look at what I have done so far (and I haven't even written anything yet) and I know that I can do this. I just need to work really hard on making sure it is all lined up for November. This is not going to be a story that I will be able to wing much. I still have some vague spots that I want to clear up before the 1st. :-) Sometimes I forget how much I absolutely love writing.

And I am trying something new this year. I am not telling anyone what my story is. I will probably put some sort of one line summary on the NaNo site. But until a first draft is completely done, no one knows. Not even Kate, and I talk to her about pretty much everything. She is my main Muse.

I had two titles that I had people on Facebook voting on, but then I was talking to Kate about them, and she said that without knowing what the story was about, both of them were good, but not really attention grabbing. And that is the main point of a title, right? To grab someone's attention and get them interested in reading the book. So I have been thinking a bit more about titles. At least working titles. And now I have a bunch of variations on a theme, but I don't know that I actually like any of them. We'll see. Once I get it narrowed down to two or three again I will ask for opinions, either here or on my facebook, so keep an eye out.

So, other than writing I have been thinking about my future a bit. Specifically the going back to school part. I have begun to think about getting an associates in computer programming. It is still just an idea, but something to ponder. If you have an opinion, feel free to throw it in. ;-)

Anyway, I don't really have anything else to say. Other than that I AM SO FREAKING EXCITED FOR THE HARRY POTTER MOVIE!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGASKJNDFOINWEOINWOIE!!!!!


update on the life of rob

It was pointed out that it has been 26 weeks since I updated! I am a bad journal-er...

Really, though, there isn't anything to say. My life is pretty much the same as it has been for the past couple years. I still work at Walmart. I did move. But not very far, and it wasn't a huge deal. I go to work, I play video games, I read fan fiction, I read books, and every once in a while I watch a movie. My life is not made of excitement.

But whatever, you didn't come here to listen to me complain about my life.

I played Final Fantasy XIII. I love that game so much. I am pretty convinced that it is one of the best games I have ever played. Love the characters, love the story, love the mechanics. I guess that they are going to make a couple other FFXIII games as well, not sequels, but games set in the same 'verse. I am looking forward to those (as long as they don't make PSP exclusives *grumbles about Crisis Core*).

I watched Eclipse. I am no where near being a "Twihard" (most ridiculous name ever! I don't know why anyone would voluntarily call themselves that), but it was good. It is probably going to end up being the best out of all the Twilight movies. They are making Breaking Dawn into two movies. I have a hard time seeing how, exactly. Apparently they are splitting after Bella gives birth. So the first movie is going to be "They get married, go have sex, she gets pregnant and has a demon!child." Only they are cutting the sex scene and they aren't showing the birth scene. And the second movie is going to be "OMG THE VOLTURI ARE COMING! *introduce five thousand non-essential characters* The Volutri show and and they...talk. And talk and Mary Sue, I mean Bella saves the day and then they talk and the end." I will likely see them, but seriously, I don't see how they intend to make these good movies at all!! Though, the first and second movies weren't very good either. Who knows. Maybe as soon as these movies are done and over with we can all go back to living our lives without Twilight again.


And I know that there are people that cringe at the thought of this, but I have been reading Harry Potter/Twilight crossover fan fiction. I don't know why, but really, I can't stop! I know that it goes against a lot of vampire lore, but I really like the idea of the vampires in Twilight. I think they could have been really well done in the hands of a better writer, and I like to see where fic writers can take it. I have some issues with certain things that tend to pop up, but I can usually see those just by reading a summary. For example, when the summary says "Bella isn't really who she said she is..." Or "After Edward leaves, Bella/Edward realizes she/he didn't really love him/her..." Those two just drive me insane. One, AU is okay, but to make it out as if Bella was lying about who she was and is really (take your pick) Bellatrix Lestrange's daughter, a witch, Lord Voldemort's daughter, Harry Potter's twin, the Girl-Who-Lived, then it comes off as a little ridiculous. And if Edward and Bella meet and the first book goes along as it did in canon, then Bella and Edward aren't just going to be "oh, I made a mistake, I don't really love you." Slowly falling out of love, or realizing something about the other that puts a damper on the relationship is okay. But really, I just hate Bella, so anything removes her completely, or better yet, kills her off, is all good in my book. The other thing that really frustrates me is when a character will be turned, but they won't be a "normal" vampire. As in they won't sparkle, or they won't change eye color (that one really bugs me), or they can eat human food, or they can cry or sleep. And that isn't just with HP crossovers. I found that when I was reading Supernatural/Twilight crossovers, too. If you are going to turn someone into a vampire, turn them into a fucking vampire!!!

Seriously, I can't believe that I just wrote nearly an entire post about twilight. I am sad...

But Harry Potter comes out in just over three months!!!!!!! I am so excited!!!! YAY!!!!! And it is going to be so awesome!!!

Also, Star Wars: Force Unleashed II comes out just about the same time, and that is going to be awesome, too! I am convinced!! YAY!!!!
And also, there isn't nearly enough SW:FU fan fiction out there. Someone really needs to fix that...and it isn't me! I don't write fic for public consumption. I start fics that I want to read, but never finish them. I have like a dozen fics started that I will never finish. Most of them are because I really wanted to read a specific type of fic, but couldn't find anything like it, so I just started writing. I have a few HP fics: 1 creature fic, 1 transformation fic, 1 super fic, and at least one or two more. An Buffy/Supernatural/Anita Blake cross (that I actually want to redo as a HP/SPN/AB instead). A HP/Twilight cross. A Buffy/Charmed/SPN/X-men fic that I like to call the BFC aka the Big Fucking Crossover. A couple just BtVS fics. A Buffy wish!fic that threw in elements of Charmed, Dune, and Star Wars. And then I have a few that are just floating around in various notebooks that I can't remember right now.

Anyway, hopefully it won't be another 26 weeks before I update again, but you never know...

*this is a spoiler free post*

Tonight's "Heroes" made me all wiggly with happy. I love this show so freaking much! And the teaser for volume six!!!! AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!

*flails uncontrollably*


There is no subject, just rambling.

Wow, so two months since I posted here...I am really falling behind on my lj-ing. To update you, I succeeded at NaNoWriMo. I actually wrote something like 8,000 words in the last day because I had been falling so far behind, but I did finish! It wasn't too good, in my opinion. I don't even know if it is salvageable. It might be, but it would involve a plot transplant. But I like the characters and the world, so we'll see. I started trying to do some serious revision of "The Mad Queen" (2008's nano story) but then I spilled water on my keyboard and have been keyboardless for quite some time. But I have a keyboard again, at least a temporary one until I can get (read "afford") another ergonomic one (because they ftw!), so now my plan is to print out my current draft and retype the whole thing, which is one of the suggestions that I read from one of my writing text books. It will take a while, but not only will it allow me to get the whole thing in my head again, it will definitely undergo changes as we go, and the benefit of that is the changes will be streamlined and coherent (as opposed to making a change and then trying to remember all the places that change affects and going through and rewriting just those scenes, like a patchwork).

Anyway, we are also moved! I don't know how many of you knew we were moving, but we now live in Boise (Namio's old house, if that means anything to anyone other than Melissa). It is quite a drive to work and back, but other than the price of gas, it is actually kinda nice. I get to listen to my music, and just drive, which I enjoy doing. But I am thinking about putting in a transfer request to one of the stores over here, or looking for something else, which could have limited success with the way things are right now.

Currently reading the Dark Tower series by Stephen King. Am pretty close to being done with the third one. I had forgotten how intense it was. I have only read the first three all the way through, and then the fourth one got somewhere around half finished. It was during high school, and I reached a part that felt like it was dragging, (which thinking back may or may not be true, and may or may not have been the point) and I had also just found out that the fourth wasn't the last (as I had thought) there were actually three more and they hadn't even been written, and there were no idea of when they would be written. So I put it down and never picked it back up. But now, all seven are done, and I own the first five, and have easy access (relatively...woot! half.com!) to the last two. Which reminds me, I should order those soon. But yeah...

I was overnights at work for a week setting the spring toy's and the seasonal valentine's shelves. It wasn't bad. I am never really opposed to going over nights, it is the coming back that kills me. I switch to living at night like I was turning on a light, but trying to reverse it and returning to living during the day...I am obviously a night person, but seriously!!! I was sleeping only a couple hours a night and those were usually spread out like whoa. Lying awake for hours when you known you should be sleeping is no fun.

I am absolutely loving Heroes this season!!!! The last couple eps have just been phenomenal. I won't go into it too much, because I don't know how many people watch it and haven't seen them yet, but seriously. If you don't watch Heroes, why not?! Go watch! But start with the first season because if you don't you will be all fuckered up.

Also, Bones!!! Yay Bones!!!

And Supernatural just came off the mid season hiatus and I have to go to bed so I can't watch it yet. Damn it. Ah well, such are the wonders of DVR.

Anyway, I think that might be it...my paid account ran out, and as much as I want it, I just can't justify spending the money on it, and not something else. It makes me sad, because I will miss my icons, but I will just have to live with it.

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